4:45 | The Aftermath

4:43– The Suspicion

“Something don’t feel right, especially coming up after midnight/ I smell your secrets and I’m not too perfect to ever feel this worthless/ How did it come down to this, going through your call list?/ I don’t wanna lose my pride but I’ma f*ck me up a b*tch” (2016 “Lemonade” – Beyoncé)

You think back to all of the advice that you gave your annoying friend about her sleezebag boyfriend Tyrone who got exposed for having sexual relations with his newly discovered side chick. You think about how harsh the DELIVERY of your advice was. You didn’t show her any sympathy as the words rolled right off your tongue, easily and without hesitation. “Girl just leave him already. You can do better,” you said in between huffing your breath and rolling your eyes. Remember? You said that’s what you would do. You would just leave and NEVER think twice about hearing a cheater out. Once a cheater, always a cheater. You didn’t take into consideration that it wasn’t that easy for her to pick up and leave a man that she brought into her family. This was the same man that had grown to be your friend’s best friend and confidante. He was the same man she had poured her trust, faith, and years of love into. They struggled together. They grew together. For all she knew, he was the one she’d marry but you dismissed all of their history and urged her to drop those feelings overnight. You were brick. You were stone wall cold. “Move on. There’s more fish in the sea sis.”

And just maybe you were right. Maybe she should move on but where was your compassion?

What’s it to you though? You have no worries. See YOUR man is not like Tyrone or any of those other bums. Nah, your man is a GOOD man. He’s the type to flaunt “us-ies” of you two on his social media sites for all of the world to drool over and praise as “couple goals”. He’s the type to take you home to momma and proclaim he’s found his Proverbs 31 woman. He’s the type to parade you around all of his friends just so you can have a sense of belonging not just in his life, but in the lives of those that mean the most to him. You give him all he needs: affection, support, encouragement, and plenty of good s…. Your hair and nails stay slayed, your body stays fit and tight, and your hygiene is never slacking. Why window shop when he owns this?