"Because Forgetting to Love Yourself Happens"
Suicide. There I said it. I broke the ice. It’s easy for us to forget worth some time. Or, I guess to stop understanding it to an extent. I firmly believe that we all go through phases, or grow through phases… But at the same time doesn’t change anything if were being honest. Well, I have to correct myself again, doesn’t change anything if we are willing to change those things that need change. I guess that’s a lot of change sometime. It’s actually the very thing that seems to make us most uncomfortable. Change is vulnerable. Change requires understanding. Change requires thinking outside of ourselves, most of us really are prepared to do that. Even though we like to believe that we are. But most of us aren’t even willing to be honest with ourselves. I’m here to tell you that that’s OK. Because, forgetting to love yourself happens.
We live in a society where social media, and cell phones drive just about everything we’re doing. We stop taking moments for self. We live in a society where it’s easy to indulge in someone else’s life, or a life that seems to be going better than the one that we’re living. I’m here to tell you that’s OK. What’s not OK is staying there.
I’m 27 and I just found myself confidence. How? Where has it been this whole time? It’s been inside of me. But I was skeptical of it, because I’ve never been the cool person… Or the guy that dressed the best. Or so I thought. Clout. What the fuck is it and why do we want it so bad? God knows I did, shit sometimes do. I mean I am a rapper. I am fucking attractive, so how is it that sometimes I forget all of those things. Well, sometimes it just happens.
Most people who know me know me for being really good with my words, and being able to appeal to people. Somehow along the way I lost what was the very thing that everyone seem to be attracted to. My charisma. See I was always good with my words, but I stop being good with interacting with people… I forgot how. Intern it sent me into a depression. I couldn’t figure out how or why I no longer wanted to be around people… When they were the literal driving force of what kept me going. I soon found out, well not even really soon, but I found out that was the problem. I didn’t love when I was giving people people just love to but I was giving them.
I heard will smith one day say in a motivational video that self-discipline is the definition Of self-love. I didn’t even completely understand the concept at first. But literally taking care of yourself, connects everything around you. Like I said earlier we live in a society where it’s easy to forget about you being concerned about everything else. Forgetting to love yourself happen sometime. I know firsthand. But remembering how to love yourself, first, is something so intangible I think it’s probably how angels feel. Love yourself. You never find love without it. More importantly, you never find peace without it.
Because forgetting to love yourself happens, but it’s never the end of the world.